Amalia's stroller is missing.
Someone came up onto our porch in the middle of the night and took it.
I know this because it's not there anymore.
I realize that it's not there anymore in this awful suspended moment of time, it stretches out before me.
Dread.
Slow, weightless, breathless.
Then denial.
Then tears.
I have allowed myself to wallow in anger for a few days. I've kept busy with thoughts of terrible woes befalling the thief. I've called for plagues, terrors and regrets to torment him/her.
My husband wants me to forgive.
He mentions this as he washes the dishes.
I should forgive the person who did this.
The person who would steal a baby stroller needs my forgivness.
I'm trying.
It's not easy.